umpteen chances

second chance is hard to get and most often than not, it's the last one. it's a break or make thing. it's trust. but with some people, we would just keep giving, time and again. or at least me, the ultimate sucker!

there's this boy i used to look after. he was on drugs. still is actually. now he is back looking for me, looking for help. he said he wants to go to the rehab and that he needs my help to arrange. i hesitated at first, but how could i not help him. how could i not help someone who need one? so i said yes i will.

i remember how badly i was hurt and cheated. manipulated is perhaps the best word. i remember exactly how it feels. not only once or twice and not only by one or two kids. but i kept giving and i got burnt out at the end.

but that's the things with kids, they need more than second chance. if a chance is a space to make up what they have done wrong, then they need more than just that space. it could be a dark space, so they need some light. it could be dusty, so they need some cleaning up. it could be lonely, so they need a company.

i guess we, the adults, too need more than that space.

so if umpteen chances is what it takes to make a person a better person, so be it.

but of course, terms and conditions applied.